One does not live their entire life as their own god, doing their own will and when they are on their death bed and udder the magic words “abracadabra” Wait not those magic words these magic words “I Believe” and all of sudden you get a Ticket to the new Kingdom.
This is nothing more than a desperate act of a Scoundrel, you know it, I know it and Of course the Fathers knows you have nothing else to lose at this point, so why not say the Magic words.
Same thing when we get sick or hurt, all of a sudden we feel Spiritual. All the stuff we didn’t want to think about when we felt invincible. Yet when some thing happens we think we are in tune with the Creator.
You are not. You are being Called to Him. You are being placed in this position to get your Attention. Being Sick or Hurt is reminding you Death is coming and its coming for you.
You see it in the Pain, The Blackness, The Loneliness, you know you are going to Die one day. Something you ignore while Laughing, Eating, Parting, Ha’Satan has us entertaining this Flesh for that very reason. So you don’t focus on the Death you know is coming. Satans lie ‘You’ll surely not die” well at least not until you are of an ripe old age.
It is these moments in life where Death is Close or Feels like Death. You’re sober enough to see you exist that means a Creator could also exist. It is in these sober moments of Pain you are making a choice.
Void of the Fleshly Pleasures, you can see in these moments, one day the Party is going to end. And we’re only pretending we are in control of how it will end, sorta like we view the end of our life.
You can go to a funeral and hear people say “They’re in a Better place” but while that person was walking around laughing, eating and parting, we knew them as Spiteful, Cheating, Unforgiving and down right mean if you’re on their bad side.
There is no magic words at the end of the Test that will void out the Test you just took. Same with being Sick whether Physically or Emotionally, its like getting on a Bad drunk and find yourself puking like you might actually die. You say no more, never again, you pray for mercy from your mistake.
But Once we are Better, Feeling Good. Walking on our own, the Desire to remain Spiritual or Repenting starts fading away. We have cheated death and as time goes by our attention is no longer on things above, rather its like we were never sick, hurt or called.
You made it through that now you are stronger, you’ll be tap-dancing at 99 whatever happened to us was a fluke. If there really is a Creator, I’ll repent at 98 and serve Him, thats good enough.
I am here telling you, NO!!! You’re in control of nothing, but the choice made during those Spiritual moments, that choice of Submission or Rejection has to be lived out and the Flesh should represent that. If all people see in us is “Spiteful, Cheating, Unforgiving and down right Mean” you can bet thats our Heart.
Not knowing the Reason you are in these Flesh bodies is the very reason you keep fooling yourself its okay, I’m no better or worst than anyone else. You are not going to be judged by the standards of others.
Torah is what the Most High gave us to be judged by, that is a Stable Source too be judged by, not your friends, you compare yourselves too.